"It's a lot for someone to handle." (I'm a lot for someone to handle.) "I just thought--I..."

Gaeta takes his hand.



The world moves from under him.

(Because why not apologize? Why not be sorry for being messy, for not handling it--why not be sorry for failing to keep it together, for saying things that upset people--for constantly reviving the Village's memory and wanting people to listen--for being the thing that killed Hawkeye, that killed Powell--for the fact of himself--for deserving it--)

(But is Gaeta wrong? Does Gaeta not see him in all his screaming nightmares, and does he not forgive him for it?)

"... I don't understand."